Monday, December 21, 2009

Upside Down! Conquering my fear!

Fear can be a good thing. It's an instinct that prevents us from doing stupid things BUT fear is not always rational. While my fears often protects me from the pain of a crushed ego, they also keeps me from the exhilaration of victory and success.

When I was younger, I QUIT gymnastics twice because I couldn't do a cartwheel. Twenty some years later, I am yet to master the cartwheel and continue to harbor a fear of going upside down - Cartwheels, diving off a diving board, handstands, flips of any kind....
My fear IS silly - it IS not rational - it IS a MAJOR obstacle on my road to the 2010 CrossFit Games.

The dreaded HSPU (handstand push-up) has been something I've avoided for months. Frustrated by my earlier attempts I swore them off! I protected my ego but didn't do much to reach my goal.
Last Monday I asked Megan to hold me accountable for attempting the HSPU as part of my warm up. Monday - Tuesday - Wednesday - I struggled to kick myself on the wall - let's not even talk about actually attempting the push-up part - I was glad to just turn myself upside down.

I saw Friday's WOD included HSPU and figured there was no time like the present to conquer my fear! I completed 13 rounds in 20 min - 2 HSPU unassisted and successfully finished the workout without giving a second thought to flipping upside down on the wall!
My fear WAS silly - It WAS not rational - It WAS a major obstacle on the road to the 2010 CrossFit Games.

I have the strength - I have the determination - and now I have faced my fear. It's amazing what you can do if you put your mind to it!

What are you going to conquer in the upcoming year?


  1. mind over matter sensei'.... rooting for you in 2010 LT!

  2. That is awesome to hear...I'm certainly nervous about the HSPU but it will come!

  3. Thanks for sharing this! I have a massive fear of handstands and was working on them for a while... making progress. But I've stopped working on them, and I'm scared all over again. Silly, Mel!

    I'm going to practice my kick up 2X a week in the new year. Thanks, Lisa!

  4. I am so proud of you!!! Way to "kick yourself up there" and MAKE IT HAPPEN! I am 100% cheering you along the entire way in anything you need.

  5. Congrats on a great accomplishment!