Was realizing I belong there!
We live about 1/4 a mile from on of Austin's best yoga studios and better yet they are know for pre/postnatal and kids classes! So, all it took was 1 free class offering by a long time athlete at RBG and I was there!
As I sat in the empty room (I am always early.....) watching the other pregnant ladies arrive, I kept thinking how great they looked - how fit and agile even the 37 week pregnant woman looked. I was inspired by the process of creating a kiddo and fascinated at how HUGE a tummy could be and how "normal" the rest of the body could remain. THEN I realized I was not just watching these pregnant women - I was one of "them" SHIT!!!!!!
I know we're all supposed to talk about how exciting this is and how great it's gonna be - and it IS - but it's also strange - I do not associate myself, my identity as pregnant, as a mom, etc. I successfully choked back tears for the next 20 minutes or so of class all the while to trying to remember my intention that the instructor had asked us to create before class began....Peace and Relaxation!
The class was great - the instructor was nothing but awesome - but I that didn't mean the entire 75 minutes wasn't surreal. When the instructor said "one hand on your little one" or "mommy arms" etc - I almost didn't know what to do - do I have "mommy arms"? It sounds silly to think but pregnant is not ME but it is so ME. One day at a time- one lb at a time - a million emotions at a time......
And I'll be back - I committed to every Wednesday for the next 5 months!